If anyone ever thought you could run out of tears, I am pretty positive that you can't (unless there's a disorder). My last 3 days have been full of gut-wrenching cries. Most likely its what my body needed, but I also know that God is working on my heart and soul. He takes every seemingly bleak event and turns it into something good to those who love Him.
I had never fully realized the impact that someone can have on me and I on them. Whether it comes through a spoken word, a hug, or even a smile, it all means the same. I am loved! I can't decide if it's sad that I realize it differently every day, or if its just a blessing that God has created within me.All of this growing, brokenhearted and empty, is teaching me more than I could ever learn otherwise.
Mr. Smiley would be Matt Phillips. A beaming light of perseverence and faith who I became friends with at Southern Hills CoC. He just turned 16 this past Wednesday and I was able to join the youth in singing 'Happy Birthday'. How emabarrassed he was but his smile never left his face! Late last night (after I was already asleep), I was informed by text message that he had passed away. What a note to wake up to in the morning before my first real day of therapy! I had just seen him 4 days previous. While we all miss him here and will feel a hole in the youth group, I know that he is running and jumping in heaven. You see, he grew up with what is commonly known as Brittle Bone Disease and was in a wheelchair. He could not do sports, but he could swim and outspell anyone I know. I will forever be blessed and inspired by this guy.
Whatever I have been, or will face will be small in comparison. Thank you Lord, for Matt Phillips and the life that you gave him here on earth. I pray that many more people would come to know you because of his unfailing love for You.
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