Thursday, January 24, 2013

I AM. Are you?

This past weekend I had the opportunity to be a part of Winterfest in Arlington, TX. For those of you who may not know, it is a big "youth rally" type gathering. I went most of my years in middle and high school but it was somehow different this year. Not sure if that's the grown up side of me or an actual fact. The theme was The Way...looking at the seven I AM statements of Jesus in the book of John. There were five speakers, three days, and one purpose (see what I did there :). Basically the same premise as when I was growing up, but with less "rally" aspect. No Friday night concert from a Christian band. Only one t-shirt booth. More Christian college booths. Lots more singing. Laughter til I cried and great lessons.

The whole idea was to withdraw from ourselves and realize what God has done, what he is doing and what he will always do. The core of His being is a multifaceted diamond that includes all of the statements. I was reminded of how unlikely it was that one man would fulfill this many prophesies.

I AM the way, the truth and the life.....

I AM the vine.....

I AM the good shepherd....

I AM the gate....

I AM the light.....

I AM the bread of life....

I AM the resurrection and the life.....


What can you do besides lay yourself down at his feet?! The word "the" is singular. His loving arms not only point the way but show it. He is the truth we search for. When we remain connected to Him, the pressures of life are bearable and when we are broken, His power is made known. He is the voice we need to listen to and know by heart. The gatekeeper has the "all-access pass" and is the safest person to know. His light casts out the darkness and calls people to change. Three times the word LIFE is used in these statements: He sustains us, He gives us a purpose, He gives joy. The fact that he has risen and death could not hold him is the best "ending" and perfect "beginning".
My talk with the Junior girls in my hotel room was uplifting. It amazes me how much they've grown in the past 4 years that I've known them. Wow! They will do great things for the Kingdom and I'm so privileged to be a part of it.

Are you ready to be who you were created to be? There are days when I wish I knew the future and exactly who I am going to be, but then I would miss the blessings along the way. Live the Life that is within you!!

Sunday, January 13, 2013

After all it's all about Love

Today was another one of those days that I learned the same lesson in 5 different ways. The theme was the same. Each point connected back to the center, as spokes on a wheel. First, came class time where I sat by someone I respect greatly. I knew the question would come, but I was not ready for how it would affect me. My emotions won out and another friend jumped in, with only the most gracious encouragement. I am thankful for the uplifting words shared from both of them. In service, we talked on the topic of love. Our preacher did a wonderful job of approaching the subject, saying that it could be boring, something we had heard before. Yet if we give love the only meaning that truly defines it, then we bring new life to it.
I will add some more points from the sermon as this post continues, but I want to also mention the book series that I have been reading (recommended by my Mom): the Bailey Flanigan series by Karen Kingsbury. There are 4 books: Leaving, Learning, Longing and Loving. I saw myself in every page of those books. Searching for my place in the world, leaning on my family and faith in God, facing trials and fear, longing for an earthly husband, yet longing for God's love with each passing day. The author writes of God's plans for our lives, waiting on His timing, and praying despite our feelings. God is speaking to us if we choose to listen.
The messages from those books were still in my mind today as I listened to the sermon. We use the word love too often. I love being outdoors, I love playing games, I love...when love cannot be separated from God and how we love others. It is CORE. Love pays the price. Love risks forgiving. Love makes us new people. God's Love does that. Love is demonstrated. Love captured your heart.

Jesus is the one that defines love. He demonstrated it. He paid the price. He risked forgiving us. He made us new. He captured my heart.

One of my friends from my story this morning pulled me aside after service and introduced me to someone. It was a 10 year old girl from Rwanda. He said to her, "I want you to be just like her (meaning me) when you grow up." Heart overflowing...I did not deserve such a compliment. It once again tied into the idea of love, proving how much I was first loved and how much love I have to give to others. Finally today, I went with the youth group to see Les Miserables (my second time). Of course I cried again, but I was impressed by the amount of high schoolers that did as well. For those of you that don't know the plot line, it is a story about grace and love. The first act of grace and redemption causes several other lives to be positively changed. Each character has the choice to respond in thankfulness or guilt. Each character has his or her own faults and whether the gifts are deserved or not they are given.

One of the final lines states: To love another person is to see the face of God.

I believe this to be very true. Love is demonstrated. There are no greater commands than to love God then love others. I am still learning but I'm glad God is teaching me these lessons. He knows exactly what my heart needs. How is your heart? May love and grace reside there always.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

2.0.1.3

Made it to the year 2013...never thought it would be here. I do not normally make "New Year's resolutions"  but I do like to look on the past year to see what I learned and how I can be better for the future. God has done some amazing things in my heart that I never anticipated in 2012. In no particular order, here are a few things I learned:

He taught me how I can be independent yet dependent on Him. I am still learning the balance.

He taught me through life in two other countries, Zambia in Peru, how to appreciate people for   who they are, see the best in them, and allow them to touch my life.

He taught me through my times of contentment how good He is, but reminded me in my times of despair how good He is as well.
             John 16:32-33
             Jeremiah 29:11-13

He asked me to forgive and then heal.

He asked me to be patient and earnest in prayer, finding myself as seek His face.

He provided opportunities for my gifts to be used for His glory.


When I look back on 2012 in this way, I cannot help but be thankful. The people that formed my year are a blessing that I will treasure, whether we see each other every day or once a year. I cannot begin to imagine what God has in store for me in 2013 :)

What did you learn in 2012? How will it drive or change your 2013?